Hard to Be Soft. Tough to Be Tender.

 

I am not a big fan of prayer.

It seems so self-serving ~ all the asking, begging, pleading.

It's like when my kids come to me, unprovoked, and say, "I love you." My response is, "What do you want?"

There's always a catch.

So wouldn't you know, the Universe is out to teach me a lesson.

My latest Holistic Theology course is, of course, PRAYER.

And as a lab, the Universe has thrown in a shitload of drama that I have no control over... leaving my only recourse of.... PRAYER.

He's a funny guy, that God.

My observation of myself is... when the going gets tough, I get tougher. I go into defense mode; batten down the hatches, harden my emotions... tense up and dig in. That is not really working for me.

So I am learning what prayer really is...

Surrender.

Softening.

Pliancy.

Bending.

I only need three prayers.

"Thy will be done."

"Shanti Shanti Shanti."

and "Thank you."

Then I need to shut up and listen.

Namaste,

C H E Z

 

Comments

[chel]

Instead of praying in a typical way, I've been writing a lot of letters to God (the Universe, the Goddess, whatever suits you...) It's helping- I really like to write, I really like communication to be quiet and still when it comes to important subjects. And I feel like I'm getting responses, oddly enough. It's been a very enlightening experience, I must admit...

[Barbara Shallue]

I feel like I'm praying all the time, constant internal conversation. I need to shut up and listen more often - take myself to quiet places. Ultimately, it does come down to "Thy will be done." You just have to mean it. That's the tough part.