The Cosmic Mother

I have always been a Jesus freak. While I am not Christian in the dogmatic sense, in all my spiritual explorations, I always come back to Jesus' life, his actions and teachings, as a foundation that I ground in. 

But ever since my children were born, I have had a growing affinity for the Mother Mary. I don't pray to her, or deify her, but I often contemplate her. 

It has a lot to do with being a mother. When parenting is difficult or heartbreaking, I think of her and what she must have gone through witnessing the trials and tribulations of her son. I understand her pain and suffering. It must have felt even deeper than Christ's himself. After all, don't we feel our childrens' suffering at ten times the magnitude then they? Mary's suffering puts my maternal heartbreaks in perspective.

It has even more to do with me being a woman. I feel her on an intuitive space ~ in my attempts to live a soulful and compassionate life in a world overwrought with the constriction that masculine energies place on the feminine. When I imagine Mary in her story, I see a woman so strong and powerful, with no say or control with all the chaos that swirled around her. How or if she remained centered in the midst of that, I don't know. I struggle as I sit in the center of our current chaos, praying and holding love and compassion in my being, but feeling on the verge of despair sometimes.

Have we come a long way baby?

Indeed.

But only in the realms of the superficial, the financial, political, social and sexual arenas. But is that equalization due to the feminine being integrated into the world or has it been at the expense of the feminine? Have we forsaken the feminine, channeling more of the masculine in order to obtain that "equality".

Please understand, I am not talking about our male and female gender, male bashing, or putting forth a feminist, political agenda. Life on the 3rd Dimension requires the creation of physical polarity in order for procreation. But before we get these beautiful vessels, we are whole and complete spirits, a balance of yen and yang. Once in the body we don't often express this balance.

How did this happen?

The foundation of humanity and civilization rests on our spiritual/religious traditions. I don't care if you are atheist and personally don't believe in God, at the core of every civilization there is a spiritual, philosophical root, that affects how we go about our daily lives. Our laws, our ideals, our traditions, all spring forth from that root. In America, the foundation has a Christian overtone. In Saudia Arabia, it is Islamic. In India, Hindu.

At the roots of all our modern spiritual interests, the feminine is diminished and ignored.

She was there "In the beginning...",as Sophia, she was there in indigenous wisdom teachings, but as soon as humanity became "civilized"... well... where did she go?

God in most religions is a masculine creator, a sculptor, a builder who took inanimate pieces and fabricated them into something animate. He has become personified as a Man.

But isn't it funny, that in our Earthly experience, that is not what is demonstrated. The feminine builds animate life in her womb, pulling bits and pieces from the Earth and from itself, growing and nourishing life before birthing it into creation, just as every mother has birthed every being on our planet.

If you look at your own concept of God, is your first reaction male? For me it is. Even though I have an understanding that this is not the case, it is still my first reaction because of my cultural upbringing: God, the Father.

I am not suggesting we forsake or vilify the masculine... the competitive, assertive, dynamic, and logical... I am calling you to embrace the feminine in balance to the masculine; the compassionate, the open, the receptive part of yourself. I am not just speaking to my fellow "girls", but to my honorable men as well.

Our planet is reeling from the effects of masculine energy that has run amok and unchecked for too long. This is a calling to being WHOLE and balanced in ourselves so that our civilization can become whole and balanced.

Namaste,

C H E Z