How Will My Garden Grow?

 

Damn! When things get to changing - they all change at once!

My life is shifting as abruptly as the Earth's lithosphere has been of late. 

I can't just focus on one thing; changing my nutitional lifestyle, relocating our home, exploring new openings in my business/career space. They are all bombarding me at the same time.

We have spent the past few years wading in a mire of obstacles and situations that had us stuck. Trying to strategize our way out of that swamp only got us halfway through it. 

But now the Universe has taken over and has finished razing the past, feeble constructions of my life.  The destruction is almost complete and I am looking out over a empty field of rich, fertile soil ready for my sowing. 

And I am being presented with a handful of seeds.

I am joyous.

I am scared shitless.

If I take a step to plant something, will it be torn asunder? I have good intuition and instincts about others and the world around me, but they are for shit when it comes to knowing and guiding myself. I have spent my life guiding, mentoring and advising everyone else, but I look at the path I have traveled and it is willy nilly, a dandilion rooting wherever the next wind took me.

Almost every seed that I have planted, has been for or because of someone else. Almost every choice I have made was out of neccessity rather than my own true desire. Other choices I have made unconsciously, or from an impetuous, rebellious, acting out space, because I was unhappy with my other choices. 

I may have planted only 5 conscious seeds in my life. 

Kelsea.

Going to Art School.

Mattea.

Jeff.

Original Bliss.

wow.

With this final phase of this current destruction I have resolved for myself to plant my next seeds with a conscious, full and open heart. Divine spirit, through me, is choosing how the garden grows this time.

Stay tuned.

Namaste,

C H E Z

Comments

[EVA]

Best wishes for successfully choosing and planting those seeds. You deserve it!

[lynda howells]

thinking of you as you plant your chosen seeds.xxxyou deserve to get your wishes. Update on my husband..he has had an op to alter his irregular heart beat and fingers crossed...it seems to have worked. HE WILL BE TIRED AND NOT TO WELL FOR A WHILE BUT GRADUALLY WILL GET BACK TO NORMAL.......SEE WISHES DO COME TRUE SOMETIMES MY FRIENDXXI am here for you even if just in my thoughtsxlynda

[Ginny]

What a wonderfully open post New beginnings are always exciting. Best of luck with all that you are planning and planting.
PS I love your drawings.