So I watched Oprah today.
I don't usually watch Oprah. I have nothing against her... I just don't like sappy, overdramatized, preachy things. I like authenticity. And although she preaches authenticity - it doesn't feel authentic to me.
I want REAL. Like, really really REAL.
I like my sunshine with some clouds...
my flowers in the dirt...
I like my tears... not to be a pretty, little well-up with one sliding down my cheek.... I like tears with snot and sobs and black, mascara eyes that leave a salty rind encrusted on my face.
But I watched Oprah today, featuring Tom Shadyac, the director of Ace Ventura, Bruce Almighty, Nutty Professor, who gave up the so-f-ing-rich-and-successful life, for a REAL one.
It hooked me. It touched me. And it reminded me of several things about myself that I have let go to seed.
I haven't been living my purpose. I know my purpose. I yearn and crave to be fulfilling it. BUT I continuously put it aside and give my energy away to purposes that are not from my own heart. I get distracted and off-track.
Oprah said today.... "Each day we live not doing our heart's desire... we die a little."
That resonated with me. I know that little inkling of death. I feel it when I close my eyes at the end of a day that I have been completely out of touch with my soul's reason for being.
So I am putting a little Posty on my bathroom mirror that reads - "Follow Your Heart - OR DIE!"
Every morning... as I floss my gums... I will repeat it in my head and go into my day following my heart.
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