I am not a big fan of prayer.
It seems so self-serving ~ all the asking, begging, pleading.
It's like when my kids come to me, unprovoked, and say, "I love you." My response is, "What do you want?"
There's always a catch.
So wouldn't you know, the Universe is out to teach me a lesson.
My latest Holistic Theology course is, of course, PRAYER.
And as a lab, the Universe has thrown in a shitload of drama that I have no control over... leaving my only recourse of.... PRAYER.
He's a funny guy, that God.
My observation of myself is... when the going gets tough, I get tougher. I go into defense mode; batten down the hatches, harden my emotions... tense up and dig in. That is not really working for me.
So I am learning what prayer really is...
I only need three prayers.
"Thy will be done."
"Shanti Shanti Shanti."
and "Thank you."
Then I need to shut up and listen.
C H E Z