I've always felt like an old soul.
Even when I was really small, at 4 or 5 years old, I remember thinking,
"I have lived such a long time."
I feel that so much more today. At 41, I feel like I have lived nine lives in this one life!
It isn't the same as feeling old.
I don't feel age old... just soul old.
I still feel energetic and enthusiastic. I still feel like I have so much left to do, so much to accomplish!
But I also feel I have done and accomplished so much already, I wonder how I have any energy left!
Is that weird?
It feels weird... but I thought I'd put it out there and see how many of you feel the same way.
I have been in a glazed over state all day. Groggy and foggy. Not really present in life.
What is interesting about this state, is that while I am not with it for normal things, like driving and housework, my intuitive state is crystal clear, bombarding me with insight.
I was sitting in my bath, because I was too groggy to stand in the shower, staring at my cup of coffee that I didn't have the strength to bring to my lips... when "PING"... my step-son Jon poked my head. Just a quick idea of him accompanied by a feeling of dread.
I told Jeff, "Jon is in trouble at school."
Jeff has either learned to trust my intuition better than even I do OR he was trying to prove me wrong. In any case, he called Jon's teacher and, sure enough, ding dong got sent to the office today.
I don't know about you... but it seriously trips me out when that happens! (Nevermind, being pissed at Jon for getting in trouble!)
Also... on dazy days like today, little snapshots of other people's emotions zap me... making me pay attention to the smallest details.
I was driving over to get the mail... again, completley zoned out... and I got a jolt of JOY! Everything had been moving in slow motion, then BAM, like a bolt of lightening, ecstasy!
I looked over to see where the joy was coming from and I saw a neighbor woman had jumped into the arms of her husband.
It was so cute! She was dressed up as a witch with red and white striped stockings, pointy hat in hand... she was off the ground, legs wrapped around his waist, arms around his neck, smile beaming on her lips.
Who leaps into someone's arms like that???
It was like he just got a really good job after being unemployed for a year.
I am so tempted to knock on their door and see if I'm right.
"Trick or Treat!"
It was a cool snapshot of happiness.
Here's to dazy days and nine lives!
Namaste,
C H E Z
